"It
was dark when they came in to my village and set it on fire. It was 1993, West
Uganda and I don't remember much of that night, I don't remember how they killed
my mum and my dad, only of hearing it afterward, I just remember being taken.
Kony and his men kidnapped us small ones and made us walk for days and days
with no food or water. We were all tied together as we marched along and beat
us if we were slow. One boy tied with us died in those few days of marching,
but they wouldn't untie him, they made us drag him along with us. We reached a
river that was higher than we were tall. All I remember was fear as we crossed,
still all tied together as a group.
Once I
escaped from the LRA and I just ran. I had no plan, I just ran and ran until I
could go no further. I thought I was free but they caught up with me and beat
me as they brought me back to do their work of terrorising. That's all we
seemed to ever do.
Quite a few
years later the Ugandan police found us and arrested us. It was in prison that
I found peace. A Christian group was advocating for the education of ex-child
soldiers so that on release we could have some skills to get employment. I
learnt how to lay cement & bricks, build structures like houses and walls
and I learnt about Jesus. I could not forgive myself before this for all that I
had done and I could not forgive those who had made me do it either. It was
only through having Jesus in my life and knowing that he takes all that sin and
pain away by his work on the cross that I could let it all go and be who I am
today.
When I was
released from prison I tried to return to my village. I am a Cholie by tribe
and I went back to see if any of my people were there, but no one would accept
me home. Too many of my tribe were fearful of what we had done in our past and
wouldn't let us come home. That is why I came here to Soroti, but now I feel
happy to be able to minister to boys who have been put through what I was put
through. Together, with the help of our mighty God, we can strive to let go of
the past and make decisions to change our future, knowing that God alone will
come again to judge the living and the dead, to bring justice, and that I am
covered and protected by the blood of Jesus Christ."
This is the testimony of
one of the members that I heard on Saturday's bike ride "Ride for
refuge" to raise awareness for ex-child soldiers. We rode 25km to the
Obalinga mass grave site, where 360 people are buried. They are all people who
died in the LRA insurgence on the 16th June 2003. When we got there the site
was all over grown with weeds and so we had to hoe and slash the whole area
(hard work in the African sun!). We then had a memorial ceremony and cycled back
to our base to have lunch together.
Many of the men who cycled have similar
stories as Dennis, but many have not been able to adjust to normal life again
like he has. Many are in severe inner turmoil, suffering greatly over their
sense of identity (as rejection from family members and tribe members is very
common), over guilt and over anger. Many are angry with God, not believing that
he was suffering along with them as he watched every evil and wicked deed they
were a part of, not knowing that he is the opposite to all of that, he is love.
Many don't know what to do with themselves and see Jesus as their only hope but
don't know where to go from there.
So much prayer and wisdom is needed for them and for the patient souls who are working with them, walking with them each step of the way, hearing their stories, and letting God heal them and bring them back to Him, for His purposes.
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